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Saturday, January 31st, 2009
4:38 pm	Because I need somwhere to vent that not everyone reads I don't curse. At least not at loud. I do it in my head on occasion. But now I'm going to write curses a lot. Everyone keeps telling me they will pray for us, that I will find a job. That I won't have to worry where our rent check is coming. Everyone keeps telling me I have such a good attitude about this move, that I am doing such an awesome job at keeping my spirits up. But Truth is Im not on the inside. I don't understand why we were led here, I'm mad at that. I'm counting the days that we have to stay here. Everyone keeps telling me "How EXCITING that you live overseas." "The UK must be such a cool place to live!!" I'm sure it is if you have a job. I'm sure it is if you have money to go places. I'm sure it is..... But its not for me I want people to say "That sucks!" "What a awful horrible situation you are in." I want to wake up and be happy to be here. When we first moved to Denver I hated it, I think because it was a huge change for me. I was a newlywed. I had never been married before. I was fresh out of the college life. I also hate change. But now, I wish more than anything that I was back in Denver. I could find a job easily there. I had money to travel. I could go on drives if I was upset. I had friends there. I had my babies there. I try not to think about them (my babies) But I fucking miss them!! More than I thought I would I want to wake up with Xander nose-ing his way into my hand. I want them to follow me around and collapse curled around my feet when I'm on the computer. I want to take Addie in the car with me and watch her little chewbacca face hairs get blown in the wind. I miss Xander gentle eyes. He has these eyes that look at you with just the most amazing amount of compassion, wisdom, understanding......I miss him. I dream that I'm waking up in Denver and this was all a bad dream. But Then i wake up...I wake to cold days and hopelessness A week from tommorow is Chris's birthday. It feels like shit not to do anything for it. This time last year we were with friends playing fun games, eating good fried chicken, eating Oreo ice cream birthday cake. This year...nothing. I can't even afford to take him out to eat. He won't have any presents from me. I won't get to send Xander in with his birthday card. I keep thinking "What would I do if we had money? If I had gotten a job like a planned?" I would have flown Xander in and planned a trip to London for Chris. I would have seen his amazing face light up. I don't see his face light up often anymore. Unless we are talking about what could have or would have been..... Fuck Scotland (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 14th, 2006
6:07 pm	Wedding Music Video So for those of you who couldnt make it to the wedding and have not yet seen video's of it, Chris finally put it up on his website. It's like an 8 minute clip or so.... Its my favorite part of our video, so here is the link, but I'm warning you now its a butt to load. www.impleri.net/media/video.avi (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
10:55 am	LOL I had to post this! A woman goes to Walmart and wants to return something, but is told that she can't so she says loudly to the customer service person "PINCH MY NIPPLES PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!" The CS person doesn't say anything and again the women says that the item doesn't work, she isn't happy with it and wants to return it and is again told that she cannot return it so the woman says even more loudly "PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!" The CS person calls the manager who comes down and a third time the situation is explained and the manager says that she cannot return the item to which the woman starts screaming "PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!!" The manager finally asks her "Why do you keep saying that?" And she replies, "Because I LIKE MY NIPPLES PINCHED WHEN I'M GETTING SCREWED!!!" The item was returned and her money promptly refunded. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
4:37 pm	pushover Why do i have to be a pushover? Everytime someone is selling something I can't get them to go away. We have had like 3 environmental groups come to our door and I have never given them money, but I sit and listen to them for like an hour. At the mall its the same thing...stupid nail people. ugh! I need a backbone! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 14th, 2005
2:23 pm	JOB!! GOOD GRIEF!!! PRAY LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER PRAYED BEFORE!!!! I am in the top couple for this position. I should know within 4 buisness days! "Gracious, active family with four teenage children would like to hire a second nanny to help with driving, homework, schedules, light cooking if needed, etc.. Very energetic family, loves outdoors--ideal candidate will be able to swim, help on a skiing trip, and shoot some hoops with the kids every once in a while. Must be able to travel with family +/- 6 weeks out of the year. Family has available car and provides very healthy, happy atmosphere in which to work. Excellent benefits package. $55,000 per year." it seems like a dream...but worth a try (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
4:53 pm	Rachel.....Sarah....anyone.... Okay now I am really mad!! (Friday)I come into work today and am met by a friend of the family who aparently is visiting. She says "Oh momboss took her conference a little early and she said to tell you. He is not wiped up from breakfast, he hasnt taken his nap, he needs his poopy diper changed and you need to change the trash can in his room." lovely.....huh? So guess what? Momboss scheduled her conference call early so she could spend the day with this friend. Which is totally fine, but she wasnt honest with me when she called me yesterday to explain why I needed to come in earlier than we talked about. (Monday) I dreaded going to work today because I assumed we were going to talk about the contract, I asked about it and guess what? Its not ready! suprise suprise! So momboss tells me this morning that she is going on a walk at 4 or 430 with her friends, so if I can get the other mom to pick up her child early, I can take off. So I call the other mom and grandparents are in town! WOOHOO! Next I call up the Dr who i cancelled on Friday with (he only has hourse till 6, which is when I get home) and get an appnt for 5 15. So 4 rolls around and mom comes and says "oh I'm not going on a walk, now I'm gonna go on a bike ride with hubby, be back around 5 30" I explained to her the whole situation, re-doing an apnt cause i canceled on friday (to accomidate HER needs) and he's only open till 6. she says "OH Bummer....okay see you at 530" UGH!!! I need to just quit, huh? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
12:40 pm	UGH!!! So I'm not very happy today with my job, and I suppose it has been building up for a while. First off they hired me and told me all the places the kids and I can go and then I find out that I am not allowed to drive them (I would not have taken the job if I had known this was the case). Secondly they said I would make 30,000 a year and are now telling me that I have one week unpaid vacation at christmas and so they wont raise my weekly salary to equal 30,000 it will be one less pay check than that. Thirdly, I really wanted to be hourly pay, but they wouldnt go for it saying that some weeks I will work less and they want me to have a stable income. So far I have not worked less...I have worked much much more...and feel like I am being taken atvantage of. Forthly, the momboss #1 wrote up a contract with included the overtime we talked about. Saying anything over 45 hours a week would be overtime at $20 an hour...(great for me!!) Momboss #2 figured out that typically I work 8-5:30 which is like 47 or so hours a week and she doesnt want to pay overtime. (hence why I wanted to work hourly) So she decided that if I work more than 50 hours two weeks in a row I will get a choice of overtime or leaving work early one day. ( I told her i didnt feel comfortable with this cause this is very unlikely to happen 2 weeks in a row and she assured me it will be very likely and that if I am worn out, just tell her. Like I am going to tell her!) Fifthly, She keeps putting off signing the contract (which means no extra pay right now if I work more). She told me since I came in early one day this week, I could come in Friday around 1. Great! I offered to take my husband to school and made a Dr.'s appnt. She calls today, Thursday (she is out of town), and says she made a confrence scheduled at 11:30 tommorow and figured I wouldnt mind coming in earlier, after all its later than my normal time. i told her of my plans and she said, this is a new client and she cant afford to loose it, but I can bring my husband with me..... UGH!!!! Help! suggestions!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
2:03 pm	Today is my hubby's first day of school. I felt like such a wife making him breakfast, homemade english muffins with egg, bacon, and cheese. I also packed him lunch with a little note. I am going to miss him though.... and how many memories do these bring back for you ? http://www.classic-tv.com/themesongs/lyrics.asp (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 10th, 2005
11:46 am	Woo hoo...honeymoon pictures!! ( Palm Beach Goodness ) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
11:43 pm	Can I just say I miss college for a very odd reason? RA's....yeah how weird is that? Well my reason being that we have blah neighbors....well they are nice people, but loud. The ones up stairs play their music crazy loud (we have even hit the ceiling with our mop a couple times) and then have yelling fights down the staircase in front of our front door. The ones next to us for some reason decided it is cool to buy pizza and beer and sit out on the concrete slab in front of both of our doors and have parties at night. What I wouldn't give to have an RA enforcing quite hours sometimes :) So our closet doors were not working right and we told the landlord it was annoying. He realized he could not replace them, something about the frame wouldnt hold them. Since they are on either side in a small hallway leading from the master bedroom to the master bathroom, we just took off the closet doors, put in a regular door...and bada bing! A walk in closet. Yes, my life is uneventful. No, I don't have a life. Yes, I would rather have a job than a walk in closet (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 27th, 2005
6:10 pm	new apartment Our apartment has pictures :) http://www.impleri.net/wedding/future.htm What do you think? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 26th, 2005
11:09 pm	Wedding pictures... Yeah for pictures finallly! I am way excited.... hope you all enjoy (more specifically for sarah clapp...casue she wont see them on ZFT) ( FINALLY wedding pictures ) oh i must add "ZFT" was the forum we met at...all those people from the one picture belong to the forum and most of them had never met us prior to this (3 people we knew IRL)...it was amazing how we all bonded so well in person, we will definatly be seeing each other again. (16 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 30th, 2005
12:24 am	Aparently privacy means nothing to some people... *Special thanks to those adults who think it is funny to track down their children and read something clearly not meant for them. *Bonus for leaving an abnoxious comment about how wrong all children are. Yes we all know Mandie is the following: 1 bride from hell 2 lazy 3 ungreatful 4 disrespecful 5 demanding 6 worste daughter ever 7 bad example 8 added expence of their precious money 9 nothing to be proud of I think that covers it............. Maybe in some alternate universe they will accept me for who I am, they will realize I can't do everything they want, they will be proud of me for something, they will not think that everything I ever accomplished is because of them, they will stop critisizing the choices I make, that I will be able please them somehow. ---------maybe I am just kidding myself 47 days never seemed so long. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
12:33 pm	I'm with Alicia being at home stinks. After being woken up at 8 am to be told to pick up the sandals and day planner I left upstairs, then I was told that I was disrespectful. Aparently I dont respect my parents house because I left shoes in the living room. After I was called lazy, a slob and so on I went back to bed. Then I got awoken again. Dad says I am being ungrateful for living here because I dont have a job yet. Okay I have been home for a week, but I was also watching the kids for 4 days, having a birthday, unpacking, calling rental places about chairs, calling the church wedding lady, applying for teaching jobs, getting my car fixed, and cleaning and reorganizing my little sisters entire room. My father then proceeded to tell me I need a job by friday and He will tell his friend at Chic Filet I am coming in. Chic Filet!!!! I am not working fast food! First off I am not in high school, second off I don't want minimum wage, third off I don't want some high school drop out as my manager, and forth off I dont want to look like pimple woman at my wedding. My dad then says okay find another job by friday. I said okay, but I am leaving Tues for a week. After I explain I am going down to LA for Chris's graduation he yells at me asking where I got the money. I told him it was a voucher I earned by taking a later flight. We go through the whole, why didn't you use it for your honeymoon thing and then he says I need to accept my consequenses for making a irresponsible descision and if I get fired from my new job, I will have to get a new one when I get home. After one little touch of, I helped you pay for your car, college and private high school. I was told if I dont have a job by friday I am not allowed to eat their food. Ok.....so I am moving out in July, have no responsibilities other than getting a job in CO. Why do I need a job again? and also, I asked to go to public school, my parents refused. I was told I HAD to go to college if I ever wanted my parents to support me on the mission field ( I did not want to go to college, I wanted to do an internship overseas), I also had my heart set on this old fixer up car, was told I could not buy it and they emptied my bank account and bought my car without my knowledge. I am a greatful person. If I had known allowing them to help me would give them full rights to tell me what to do forever,,,,,i would have never done it. How old am I? help............. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 7th, 2005
1:59 am	I am up way too late.... I fell too big to get married.... and in other ways I feel to little.... (Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
7:29 pm	I don't know how to make something behind the cut, but here they are. Engagement pictures: http://www.designbypeter.com/albums/chris_mandie/Chris_Mandie_083.jpg http://www.designbypeter.com/albums/chris_mandie/Chris_Mandie_077.jpg http://www.designbypeter.com/albums/chris_mandie/Chris_Mandie_036.jpg Looking at them now, makes me miss him soo much! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
9:53 pm	Matt makes me laugh S (9:34:22 PM): so any suggestions on how to get chris's mom to like me? OrnotTheMajestic (9:34:43 PM): kill her and replace her with an android that looks like her OrnotTheMajestic (9:34:47 PM): but is trained to like you S(9:35:06 PM): where do i get those? OrnotTheMajestic (9:35:15 PM): hrm OrnotTheMajestic (9:35:22 PM): good point OrnotTheMajestic (9:35:54 PM): well, i know how to get her to HATE you OrnotTheMajestic (9:35:57 PM): that's easy to do S (9:36:03 PM): get pregnant? OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:12 PM): no, she might want grandkids OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:32 PM): tell her: OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:36 PM): 1) Chris is FANTASTIC in bed OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:39 PM): preferrably at dinner OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:43 PM): with the whole family present OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:46 PM): 2) provide pictures OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:51 PM): 3) then inform them you are really a man OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:57 PM): and that Chris not only approves OrnotTheMajestic (9:36:58 PM): but likes it OrnotTheMajestic (9:37:00 PM): and it now gay OrnotTheMajestic (9:37:23 PM): that would be SO much fun OrnotTheMajestic (9:38:13 PM): rachel approves of this message S (9:38:38 PM): that is hillarious OrnotTheMajestic (9:39:39 PM): not only hilaroius, but the best advice EVER OrnotTheMajestic (9:39:43 PM): guaranteed to work OrnotTheMajestic (9:40:01 PM): rachel says it worked like a charm for Joe's mom OrnotTheMajestic (9:40:25 PM): though she said the leather bondage pictures made her a bit uncomfortable S(9:40:53 PM): i'm sure S (9:40:57 PM): do i get to see these pictures? OrnotTheMajestic (9:41:24 PM): for $19.99 a month OrnotTheMajestic (9:41:26 PM): on his website S (9:41:32 PM): lol S (9:41:39 PM): no wonder he is so rich!!! OrnotTheMajestic (9:42:25 PM): yeah, it's pretty lucrative (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 30th, 2004
1:12 pm	Love by ruby mae Your name Your partner You two are One Your meeting was by Luck They are your Protector You are their Soulmate Your love will Never end Quiz created with MemeGen! (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 5th, 2004
4:01 pm	i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
4:51 pm	Questions.... -Is it possible to just feel incomplete without someone around? -Can one fastforward the next month so that October comes faster? -Does anyone want to pack for college for me? -Do you know boyfriends are great? Current Mood: hopeful (6 Comments |Comment on this)